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Quit Yer (my) Whining

We killed.

Sun, 2008 12 21 at 2:57 AM |Permalink for this entry

Finally, the Big Gig is Tonight

I really don't have much to say about it. Earlier this week, I felt fine and had all but a couple of parts under hand. I've now gotten those parts about as good as they are going to get, but Thursday night my nerves started getting to me and haven't really let up since. It sucks because physically I don't feel well, and I can't seem to get it under control. It's similar to how I felt physically when I took on this gig.

Before the first public gig with Blue Funk back in March, I was WIRED, a bundle of nervous energy and could hardly calm down. It was annoying, but I could deal with it. For this, it's worse because I almost feel ill. Yet, I know I have the material mostly down so I don't expect any real problems. It's all pretty stupid, and I remember being able to deal with it before when doing presentations. I don't know what has changed in me since then.

Maybe the issue is that since it's not my band, not my gig, and a place I've never been, it's all out of my control. Things could happen and I have to answer to someone else and not completely respond on my own. Or, maybe it has something to do with the fact that I "peaked" a few days ago. I finally got to where I was getting into the songs and about a week or so ago, came up with stuff to do for most of the songs. Since then, that has faded, and those same parts have lost my interest to a degree, but I have been practicing them every day. So, I don't have the excitement and creativity that I had at that point to keep me going now.

Of course, I'm thinking about it too much as I always do. I guess you can come tonight and see if I blow it. 😉

Sat, 2008 12 20 at 5:23 AM |Permalink for this entry

Cram This!

I never really crammed for exams in college. No all-nighters, none of that bullspit. I prepared for exams by working on the material and making some effort to keep up as the class went along. It wasn't a perfect system, however. One thing I found was that I had to make sure that I at least reviewed material I felt I had done well with earlier, because otherwise I would not have it down like I should for the actual test.

I was reminded of this Saturday at rehearsal. I had not even briefly had a chance to go over most of the material we covered that day in the few days before rehearsal. At first, it felt quite awkward. There were some songs where I could not recall at all what I had decided to play on them, nor even be sure how they went. All it would have taken for me is a run through of all the songs at home some time before rehearsal to refresh my memory as to my parts and the arrangements so I'd know what I was doing. That being said, I did alright once the parts came back to me. I just need to make sure I go through all the songs before the actual show this Saturday…

Mon, 2008 12 15 at 2:06 AM |Permalink for this entry

Almost There

There hasn't been much to say, because things are going well. I've found myself a little nervous about the actual gig when I think about it, so I try not to think about it. The rehearsals have gone well, and I'm actually enjoying playing most of the songs. I guess now that I'm over most of the anxiety and fear and know most of the songs, I have been able to get into them more and enjoy the experience. Part of that is coming up with or figuring out parts to play, giving me a bit of a creative outlet. This ain't so bad after all! There are a couple of spots I do need to polish, and one song that I should have learned and did not.

That brings me to one thing I'm trying to figure out. It seems that I always screw up something. I'm not saying that like "I'm a screw up and I always fail," I just mean that I'll often "go the wrong way" in a song at some point. For instance, if the chord pattern is A, D, E, I'll probably go A, E, D at some point in the song. In a band context, I can quickly and easily fix this and switch to the correct chord without people noticing (hopefully). But, what I'm wondering is, what about when I'm out there, playing a solo piano part with no other instruments to hide behind? If I hit that E when I should be playing the D and it's just me and the singer, what should I do?

It was this situation in part that led me to back away from doing this one song. I know that even if I learned it, I was at a big risk to make this kind of mistake at some point in the song. I felt that the song deserved better.

Sun, 2008 12 14 at 7:44 AM |Permalink for this entry

Darn That Dream

Last night after rehearsal, Ant had a band meeting and asked me to stay. He asked me what I wanted to do with the band. The band members were impressed with how honest I was about some things such as my fears. I told them that was all out in the open because of this crazy blog, so there was no point in holding back now.

Ant wanted to know how I felt about playing with them after this gig. This is something I thought a bit about on the way home. In essence, if I had to spend this much time on the material throughout the year and I had no time for my own things such as Blue Funk, my songs, and the general piano-playing technique that I want to build, then I would say no way. But for a few gigs here and there, I should be able to manage. Also, I think and hope this will get easier as I do it more. I hope next time I'll at least know a few of the songs!

The funny thing is, the band is talking about their plans for the future, and they are big. In theory, it would be great to do it with them. But I know that in my heart, this band is not the only thing I want to do musically. As I said before, it's a great band and great music and I'm finally starting to enjoy playing the material. But in order for me to be fully happy, I have to do my own thing. I think even if I wrote songs for CH and they liked them and did them, that probably would not be all I wanted to do (though this could change, like anything).

Personally, I would not be offended if Ant found a keyboard player that loved this music and fit them personally, and made me the backup. I think if he found a player like this, he should grab him or her with both arms. There's little better than having a musician in your band that just loves the music you're doing and it suits them perfectly.

Thinking about all this led me to a confusing thought. What do I want? Would I be happy writing just songs for other people, even if they were some of the greats? Would that be enough for me, even if I got to play on their albums, produce, whatever? Or do I need my own band in the end to be truly happy? I don't know the answer to this. I've gotten so used to thinking of Blue Funk as a hobby thing because the rest of them have (or are at least supposed to have) day jobs, that I have trouble seeing them as anything near a full time band at this point. I guess one fantasy scenario would be for me to get famous (enough) as a songwriter/musician, and then being able to come back to Blue Funk and get them playing much more based on that, where they could actually justify the time playing due to the money they'd be making. That would be cool. More realistically, we'd probably just play around when we could fit in gigs around everyone's schedules, including mine.

Tue, 2008 12 09 at 6:00 AM |Permalink for this entry

P.S. A Post About Postings

This Ain't All My Cracked Head Is Up To Be

I have a characteristic where I tend to talk about things more when I don't feel comfortable or confident in what I'm doing, and less when I do feel confident. Most of my posts about the CH December 20 gig were me feeling out and thinking through what I was going through more than anything. I also wanted to document for myself what has been happening so I could look back on it (and probably laugh, possibly cringe). You'll notice that my previous post didn't really say much. That's because things went well, and to say even that is a lot for me.

Now that you know that, you'll probably observe that trend in past and future posts. I am trying to write through it all and cover everything in a balanced fashion, but it won't always work out that way.

Sun, 2008 12 07 at 10:07 AM |Permalink for this entry

I Had a Song Quote Title For This Entry, But I Forgot It

Wishes Really Do Come True!

At yesterday's rehearsal, we found out that one of the singers for the December 20th show has been eliminated (like American Idol or Survivor, I guess) and another is possibly going to be cut too. This cut five songs from the set, though one was added, leaving us with 18 songs. So at this point, what am I complaining about? (I'll find something, I'm sure.)

I have to admit, things have been going fairly well. I'm gradually getting to know all the songs and I thought rehearsal went pretty well for me yesterday. Even the one new song we did yesterday that I had never heard went okay, though I'm going to try some ideas I have for my part this week. We (well, really the bass player and Ant) came up a really cool arrangement for one "traditional" song that I think will surprise people. You will just have to come to the show to find out what it is.

Friday night we saw Buddy Guy at House of Blues. Now, you know how that was. What I want to talk about is his opening act, Tom Hambridge. Tom produced Buddy's latest, Skin Deep, as well as wrote or co-wrote most of the songs on the album. He's worked with people like Susan Tedeschi, Chuck Berry, Johnny Winter, Delbert McClinton, and others. People call him up and ask him to write songs for them and produce their records. Now that's the job I'm angling for! I'm planning on contacting him when I get a chance and seeing if he has any advice for li'l ole me.

Sun, 2008 12 07 at 5:33 AM |Permalink for this entry

Not So Random Thoughts

or, Oh no! What Have I done??!!

These thoughts aren’t random to me, they’re notable entries of what’s been going thru my head the last few weeks regarding taking the CH gig. Hopefully they won’t be too jarring to read.

I should have found out more up front. I accepted the gig without knowing how long it was, how many songs, nor how much I’ll get paid. Considering the band is quite different stylistically than stuff I have played before, and that I don’t know many songs beyond the ones Blue Funk plays, any amount of songs was going to be a challenge. This gig is currently 22 songs with three sets and two singers each set. Heck, we just saw the Black Crowes and they did 17 songs, many of which they’ve been doing for years. On the other hand, their keyboard player just joined the band, and they change their set list every night, so who knows how many songs he had to cram. I have to keep plugging away at it. More on that later.

As far as the money, it’s not that I’m worried about it, and in a sense I’m hoping this leads me to other gigs, perhaps with CH, perhaps with other bands, but also boosts my confidence to get those gigs. But part of me thinks the payment will go like this.

“Two quarters?”
“You deserve every penny. I’ve told a lot of my girlfriends about you and they have chores too!”
“Two quarters??!!”
“Bart! You didn’t say ‘Thank you.’”
“Listen Lady, I can leave without screaming, and I can leave without saying a bad word, but there is no way that I am saying ‘Thank you.’”
“You’re welcome. All right then, off you go, to spend it on pennywhistles and moonpies.”

Probably not, though. Maybe I’ll just look down and say, “I got a rock.”

The unfamiliarity with the songs has been a bit of a bear (bite of a bear?). One day, I’ll work on some songs and it will go well. Then, I’ll work on some other songs the next practice and that might go okay, but when I return to the first group of songs, sometimes I don’t even remember how some of them go at first. Or, I will, but I can’t recall what I’ve been playing for that tune.

As I’m writing this, I’m realizing that I’ve probably just not been spending enough time with it. I probably should run through each known song every practice. The bad side of that method is confusion. There are similarities in some of the songs that can mix me up. But at this point, I think I need to try it. I have been thinking that I need to get more familiar with all the material so that it’s more part of me. That leads me to another issue.

I do love a lot of different music, but I tend to focus on what moves me the most. Lately, that has been blues, but that’s not to say I don’t listen to plenty of rock as well as jazz and other stuff. However, CH’s music is generally not music that I seek out. It’s not bad, in fact, some of the stuff is pretty good and very cool. I also totally dig how Ant, Chris, and B-Funk are so into this stuff too. For me, there’s the difference between good music and music that moves me. I saw this great quote this morning, and it applies.

“I like music that finds my resonance frequency and pounds it senseless.”

This music does that for them. At the moment at least, it doesn’t quite for me. I’m sure some of that is because I’m still caught up in learning it. I have had good moments with it. It is very cool when everything clicks. But, remember, I started on this path to do what I love. Maybe I could love this, but at the moment, I’m okay with it. Look at it this way. In a previous post, I wrote about whose jobs I was angling for. I can’t say that I’m angling for Nick Rhodes’ job, nor to play keys for some of these other bands. It would be alright, but definitely not the only thing I want to do with music.

I have been spending so much time getting ready for this gig, that I haven’t done any songwriting, nor have I been playing the blues, really. Both of these are things that I live for at this point. I think I need to be a little more selective with any future gigs to choose ones that really move me, especially if preparing for them is going to take up this much of my time. If I had more time for my own things, say if this CH show was shorter, or I would have had time to play with Blue Funk in the interim, that would be much better for me.

I feel I should make one thing clear after writing all that. There’s nothing wrong with CH’s music. In fact, a lot of it is good, really good. I also am having fun with some of these songs. It is just that I don’t love this kind of music. What’s the difference between this and music I do love? I don’t know. And again, it may be that I’m too caught up in learning it to really experience it. Maybe after the 20th, I will be loving it.

Thu, 2008 12 04 at 2:39 AM |Permalink for this entry

29 November 2008

Last we left our hero, he was feeling cocky and had just returned from the Black Crowes show.

We had a CH rehearsal on Tuesday and it went alright. I did feel much better than the first rehearsal, that was for sure. Only one of the two singers that was supposed to be there made it, so we worked on the songs we are going to do with her. We rearranged one of the songs to be a bit funky. I didn't that night, but I've been thinking about and working on my part being a bit more funky to go with it. I want to be funky, I really do, but I don't think I know quite enough about it to be as funky as I want to be. We shall see what I can pull off.

Practicing in general is much of the same as it has been in previous entries, with the primary changes being adding more pieces to work on two handed playing, and focusing on whatever material we are likely to do at the next rehearsal. We have one today with four singers, but I haven't covered all that material myself yet. Ah, winging it.

At the last rehearsal, Ant told me he had read my blog and was laughing about it. So there you go.

Sat, 2008 11 29 at 4:04 AM |Permalink for this entry

21 November 2008 and Black Crowes

That was a lot of hair!

After taking Wednesday off to relax from the self-induced stress, I finally got to practicing on Thursday after taking care of some other business. I started with my normal basic practice stuff, and did a few of those two-handed pieces I've mentioned before. Then I went on to the material for the upcoming Collective Hallucination (CH) show. I mostly worked on the songs we did at the rehearsal Tuesday, and I have to admit, I was really pleased with how well it went. It just shows how much of the "problem" is in my stupid head.

That night, Lori and I saw the Black Crowes at House of Blues Houston (Buffalo Killers opened). Every guy in both bands had some sort of facial hair, and most of them had that full beard thing going as well as really long hair. If you've seen Chris Robinson lately, you know what I'm talking about. Lori and I agreed that was probably the most hair we've ever seen onstage at one show.

At the beginning of the Crowes set, I was watching Chris Robinson dancing and having a great time up there. I thought, "man, that looks like fun. I wish I could have a job like that." Then I thought, "I already haz one!" 😉

Later, the keyboard player was playing a spotlighted solo and I leaned over and told Lori, "I'm angling for his job. In fact, I'm angling for the job of any keyboard player in a cool band. Rolling Stones, Black Crowes, Little Feat, Carolyn Wonderland, Beth Black, any of 'em." I guess I was in a really good mood.

Edit: Added link to Houston Press review of Crowes show

Fri, 2008 11 21 at 7:24 AM |Permalink for this entry

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