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Boon or Bane

Sometimes, it’s a real boon to figure out what is holding you back or making you do something wrong. On TV shows, “it’s because I hate my father” or some such nonsense. In real life, a lot of times just knowing what the cause is and often saying it out loud as well as discussing it with someone else can be the first steps in fixing it.

On the other hand, it can be a bane to find out something. I recently realized one of the reasons I love and want to play music. I hear a great tune and think, “I want to do that!” (It’s not that I want to play that song like the way they played it, it’s that I want to feel the way they made me feel while they were playing it. It would also be cool to make others feel that way, but that’s not absolutely necessary for me.)

For the past week or so, I have not felt it. I have put on some of my favorite music, and while it is cool, I am just not as excited by it. I also have not been inspired to play, practice, nor learn, either. I am wondering if this an evil part of my subconscious or something that is preventing me from progressing. I think I have made a lot of progress lately, and to hit this now is really annoying.

All I can do is try to plug away at it and hope I get over this soon. I have thought about taking a break, but I don’t want to risk not coming back. I also have had a couple of gigs come up and I don’t want to turn those away.

Posted 2012 03 24 at 6:53 PM

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