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A Quick Post About Nerves
My response to someone asking about nerves in a jazz piano group I’m in
I’m getting better at being in the moment, being detached from the outcome, and enjoying the journey. I can’t even say how I got here, but lately it’s been kind of cool to see this in myself. I used to get VERY intimidated not by audiences but by those auditioning me or whoever it was I was playing for the first time. Now, I don’t care, at least to the point that I mostly don’t let it bother me. Maybe I’ve been fired or rejected so many times I’m finally used to it. :lol:
I do try to work hard at getting better, but once I have to perform, I can only do what I can do. If they don’t like it, there’s nothing I can do about that right now. I can go home and work on it for the next time, but that’s about it. I’m trying to enjoy what I’m doing right now and I hope they do too. If not, at least I did!
addendum Another thing that might be helping is meditation. I’m finding I’m much more equanimous and I think it largely has to do with that and what it brings to me in other situations as well.
Posted 2019 11 27 at 10:15 AM
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